+ a beau__tiful ho___

July 28, 2006

I don't know why this constant guilt or whatever this feeling has been with me for at least more than 4months. Just somehow seems like I caused it all on myself. Like a one way ticket to hell and there's no way back. I just feel so lost. And because of all these shit I want to runaway. I don't know what else I can do. I can't face it. I can't solve it. I can't do anything right. I don't know what's my meaning, my purpose, my goal, my everything. All because of everything that's happening and happened. It's like a stigma. I mean, it's not even my fault, well maybe just a little but not all. Whatever. So many things I think I'm just trying too hard to get out of my mind and that just make it root itself deeper and deeper. I can't even sleep at the usual time I used to. Shit. This life is just so f'edup. Constant nightmares, not only when I'm asleep but when I'm awake too. They just keep playing the f'ing thing over and over again. Screw you. Buzz off. F' off. Go awayyyyyy.

-nIx- @ [[1:42 AM]]

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ladies-
aNgELiC ; cheshire lover
aNgEz ; mehmeh
vaL ; eliephant
vIG ; cutesy
JY ; yummy
LiN ; rabbit
oInK ; pig

~~gentle~~man-
hEi ; yumcha YEAH!
wEi ; non-existant
LuT ; turtle

-Superteens 24-28 nov '03-
MELiSSa ; lovess
PiNGss ; lovess
SaMuEL ; lovess
SHErwYn ; lovess

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-nIx-
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+ex-kcpian+
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New Found Loves:
sunshine!
books
typedrawing
entertaining myself

; they say happiness, is somewhere faraway..
in Heaven.
so why don't you bring me there,
with you?

`because all you've left here..
all you've left me with,are footprints ;

reminding me of who i used to be..